Feeling good

Well, yesterday I was so frustrated.  Today, I didn't gain any weight, didn't lose any either, but at least I didn't gain anymore. I took the girls to the gym after school. I ended up doing intervals on the treadmill, only for like 40 mins, but I burned almost 400 calories!  Holy smoke!!  Was kind of hungry all day today, but I was so busy, I didn't seem to notice for most of the day.  For dinner, Salmon, beets and red potatoes, it was very good. Though Jeff was not very happy about what I chose to make, since he is not a fan of beets or salmon. I have to remind myself everyday that this is a lifestyle change. I wish I could eat anything I want to, but that is what has gotten me at this point in the first place. I don't really like working out, but I know I need to, and afterwards I feel good.  I feel good about myself for working out.  So it seems like I will have to force myself to workout, because I know it is good for my body and I feel good afterwards. It is a daily struggle, but I am not alone.  I can do this!!!

Biking, Sit-ups, Push-ups

Well the title says it all.  Last night I did some biking, sit-ups & push-ups.  Well tonight I decided to do the same, but wanted to see if I could do more than I did last night.  Well I did it! I ended up doing 16mins on the bike, 120 sit-ups and 120 push-ups!!!! I am amazed at myself. I can't believe it!  I was so frustrated this morning when I weighed in.  I had gained 3lbs since Wednesday, and I had kept in my calorie range all week.  I was just beside myself and didn't know what to do. But then my husband pointed out that when I was staying at home, I was eating more.  It's true.  I was eating 3 meals and fruit in between the meals, and my calorie range was lower, but since in range.  When I am at work I don't eat for hours.  So tomorrow, I am gonna try to bring fruit and eat in between and bring a lunch too.  I will somehow try to figure this out.  This is a lifestyle change not, a diet.  I love my trainer though.  I texted her this morning about all of my frustrations and she gave me some words of encouragement.  I love all of my supporter!  Tomorrow is working out in the park day.  It's a mini boot camp.  I'll write about that tomorrow.  I am kind of nervous and excited!

Very tired

I was going to go to the gym after work, but I ended up going to walmart to get some headphones, so I can start listening to my music while I workout.  I ate, way to much for dinner and was resting when I decided that I need to get off my butt and work out.  So I decided to use my big ball that I bought.  I ended up working out for 51 mins and did 100 sit ups, 50 push ups, and 10 mins on the exercise bike.  The 51 mins included some walking and dressing the girls after their bathes.  I am so tired right now.  I guess, even though it wasn't a long workout, it was effective. Well, I got a good work out in and even though I ate way to much for dinner, I still stayed within my calorie range.  So I'm happy about that.

Tired

It is weird.  Even though I wake up earlier on days when I have to work, I go to bed earlier too.  I seem more tired than when I get to sleep in and my 2 year old wakes me up every hour during the night. Well, I didn't end up working out today either.  I guess I need to get back to the swing of things.  I think I will take clothes with me tomorrow and go to the gym right after work.  That way, I have no excuse and I can get my time in. It looks like my two days off this week are Thursday/Friday.  I'm gonna have to kick my own butt tomorrow & make me get back at it.  Not sure what I am gonna do, but probably some intervals on the treadmill or elliptical and some strength training.  I guess we will see but I have to make myself go, no matter what!  I just have to make myself.  I lost 5lbs this week.  It is a necessity to work out, even if I don't want to, I need to.  I need to make myself. Every day.

Day off

Well, today I was planning on going to the gym, but then I didn't leave work until 4:30, and my mom and grandma were planning on coming over at 5:30, so I didn't have enough time. Well, my mom decided not to come today, so I ate some dinner, salmon, red potatoes and cauliflower, Yum. then, surprise Jeff came home early. So, it looks like today is a day off from working out.  Now, I am gonna put together Scarlett's new toddler bed we bought her. Hopefully she will sleep all night. I have stayed in my calorie range all week. I am so proud of myself. I was hungry at work, but at the same time, I didn't have time to do anything, so I kept myself busy, plus I don't have money with me at work, so I can't buy anything to eat, even if I get tempted. Today, at work, I really wish I was still a stay at home mom. I liked being at home this last week, and today, was a horrible wake up shock. Someday, maybe again. Maybe. Well, to get to work! Tomorrow, hopefully I will be going to the gym, but I will have to go by myself, so I might just end up taking a walk with the girls at home.

Dreading work

Tomorrow is my first day of work after a long week at home.  My kids drive my crazy, but I love staying home with them.  I have been to the gym everyday this week, and am doubtful that I will be able to make it tomorrow.  Maybe, if I leave work on time(which I can count on one hands the times that has actually happened). My mother and grandmother are coming over for dinner tomorrow night. Well, despite the fact that my 2 yr old woke me up every hour last night from midnight til 7 when we got up, I still made it to the gym for an hour. I am hoping that switching from morning work outs to evening workouts won't make a difference in my weight loss.  I have gotten very serious this week and have already started to see results!  I am super stoked about this!  I'm getting more confident everyday that I can do this!

Change of Plans

Well I went to the gym this morning for another training session, but there was a change of plans, due to my trainer.  Not a prob.  I just did some intervals training on the treadmill. I walked for 2 mins and ran for 1.  I did that 3 times, then started incline workout. Burned 500 calories in 40 mins!  Super happy about that.  Tomorrow is my last day of stay cation.  I didn't really get as much accomplished as I hoped, but somehow I have managed to keep myself busy.  I have enjoyed this stay cation, which I could keep being a stay at home mom and keep getting paid.  It took me all week being home, but yesterday and today I have stayed well within my calorie range and felt full.  My dinner wasn't that big, but I was overly stuffed.  Not sure what I am gonna make for dinner tomorrow, but probably gonna make some salmon for lunch. I love some salmon, especially cooked in lemon juice. I still don't like working out, but I find myself getting excited to try running. I was researching forerunner and comparing all of them.  If only I had some extra money.  Someday, not sure which one I want, but someday I will get a forerunner.  It will be great for training for 5K and marathons.

Gu!!

Worked out this morning for 30 mins with my trainer and 40 mins on my own. I was warming up for my training and I decided that I wanted to try and run.  The last time I ran it was for about 1 min and I thought I would die.  Today I ran for 2 mins straight, then walked another 2 mins and ran other min. I was surprised and impressed myself.  Tomorrow I am gonna try and do it again, longer if I can. I printed off a 5K walk/run plan from sparkpeople and I am gonna start training for a 5K, even though I am not sure which one I am gonna run in. After my workout I got home and was getting hungry.  I decided to try the chocolate Gu that I got yesterday.  I honestly wasn't sure, I mean it's, gel.  It was AMAZING!!! It tasted just like chocolate frosting.  Yum! So good. I was so curious about Gu, since Runs for Cookies kept talking about taking it on her runs.  I'm excited to start training for a 5K!  It seems so weird that I hate running, yet am so excited to start running and training.  Strange, but exciting.

New equipment

We ventured to Dick's sporting goods to find some kid golf clubs for our daughters.  They didn't have a set for our youngest, but we got a set for our 5 year old.  She is super excited and is currently out golfing with daddy.  While we were there I was checking out some other things.  I looked for a forerunner, or something similar.  Slimkatie uses forerunner and loves it.  She talks so much about it, I want one.  I think it would be a really good thing for training for my 5k and half-marathon, which I will start soon.  Well, they didn't have any, so on to the next thing I went.  I decided to try and find one of those big stability balls.  I had one a couple of years ago, but it was way to small for me.  Size and height wise. My trainer told me how to test the size and I figured out that when I had bought one before, I just picked one, but this time I checked out the size and I should have the right one.  I am very excited about this.  Also, another one of Slimkatie's favorites is something called Gu.  I was just so curious but I couldn't find it anywhere.  Well, I find small little packs at Dicks, and got a couple to try.  I really hope they are as good as I am thinking they are.  I'll let you know.

Sunburned

We had a nice day of tee ball.  Lots of sun, and forgot the sunscreen. I am very sunburned. It was quite interesting watching coaches teach 6 yr olds how to cheat at tee-ball.  I am so glad that my daughter is not on that team, and so far, it seems as though she has the best coach. Did some walking at the game. My original menu planner turned out to be a bust.  I forgot to plan in the days with tee ball and there is no way I can work all day then come home and cook lasagna in about an hr then make it to tee ball. Tonight I am making a new menu planner. I am learning that I seem to be a bored eater.  I am a little bit of a stress eater, but on the other side, sometimes when I am stressed I don't eat at all and just want to blow off steam and punch something.  That is why I want to invest in a kick boxing dummy.  Then I am getting a good workout and letting steam off. Boxing stuff is a big investment, so I have to save up to buy that stuff. I also have to buy some new shoes.  My shoes are getting worn out and I think that is partly why my feet are killing me. I'm sure it has something to do with my weight too.  If I can lose some weight, then my feet will hopefully stop hurting.

Competely sore

Had another training session today.  I felt good going into my session and even after my workout, but a couple of hours later.  Man my legs are killing.  Still tonight, I am so tired and sore.  Tomorrow is more tee ball, 3rd game of the week. Working on my list of things I want to accomplish.  I'm not sure that it's gonna be a 30 before 30, but maybe something like a bucket list. Well, I've had two days off and have yet to accomplish anything at the house. I guess I have a lot to do the next 4 days. I just seem to find things to fill up my days and don't really get anything done at the house. I looked up the rock and roll marathon and there is one coming to Texas in November.  I think that is a goal for me.  Not sure I will be able to do a marathon, but maybe the 1/2 marathon. I'm gonna try and find a 5k to do between now and then. Probably won't be able to run either one, but i think I can finish them by walking them.  I'll work up to running.

Training

Had a good training session today. I was really craving some salmon today, but then I realized I didn't have enough time to go to the store after the gym, so we went after preschool. I ended up buy a lot more than I went to the store for, but bought a ton of fruit and some almonds. Yum!  Well, since we didn't get home until after 5 and then the girls decided that they wanted to take baths. I didn't get the groceries put away til after 6. I just ended up having a tuna sandwich and some goldfish. Been a long time since I've had that. I'm still trying to get use to whole wheat bread. For a girl who grew up on white bread, wheat bread just doesn't take the same. But I'm trying to get use to it.  I use to eat tons of bread, but I don't really eat that much bread anymore. 21 days free from Dr. Pepper!!!! I've got training again tomorrow morning. Hopefully  I sleep better than last night. Woke up with a headache, so it's been a long day. Other than some grocery shopping I haven't really accomplished much today.  I guess tomorrow will be a busy day, then tee ball game. I started following a fellow sparker's blog yesterday. She is writing about journey, like me. And she has a list of 30 things to do before 30.  I love that idea. I have 1 1/2yrs before I'm 30, but I am definitely gonna think about making a list like that.

Staycation

And thus the stay cation starts today. I went to my parents house to get some boxes of stuff to go through.  It is amazing how much stuff we have gathered over the years and how much baby and little kid stuff we have and our oldest is only 5.  So that is one of my projects, along with doing tons of laundry and revamping the kitchen and living room.  Huge plans.  Also trying to be strick with staying within my calorie range. It seems to be hard for me, especially at home. Most days I seem to go off the deep end when I get home.  I need to force myself to stay in my calorie range and working out, so that I can achieve my goals.  I have a new goal, to be like Slimkatie and lose one dress size a month.  That would be amazing!  Lots of work to do.  I have a huge goal and my time keep getting shorter.  I am beginning to freak out a bit.  I just pray that I can achieve some of these goals before our vacation at the end of June. Pray for me.  It is just really hard to take the weight off.  I really just wish it was as easy to take the weight off as it is to put it on. You don't even realize that you are putting the weight on, when it is just a pound here and a pound there. Ugh!

One day left

I only have one day left to work for this week.  Yay!  I'm definitely excited, but I have a ton of work to do this week and next.  My new body media measures how well I sleep.  It seems that even though I am laying down for 8 hrs I am actually only getting about 6-7 hrs of sleep.  And to top it off, for some reason our 2 year old won't sleep in her room anymore. She has been sleeping on the floor in our room.  I just don't know what to do with her. Even though I have given up Dr. Pepper, I/we seem to be eating out WAY to much.  It doesn't help to give up soda and eat a ton of calories on junk food when we go out to eat.  I just have to quit eating out cold turkey, just like the soda.  Ugh.  It is so hard to lose weight and then a fellow sparker (sparkpeople). She has lost 50% of her weight and has kept it off for a couple of years. I read yesterday that while she was losing weight she lost one dress size a month.  Now that was a total kick in the butt. I want to be able to be able to do that.  I have a lot of work to do.  I am gonna have to kick my own butt.

Glorious day off!

What a glorious day off!  I am loving it.  Worked out this morning, 30 minutes with the trainer, 30 minutes on my own.  On a happy note I burned over 300 calories during both my training and another 300 during my own workout!  Yay!!!  And I only have to work two days this week!  Have I mentioned lately that I love my new body media!  Even though I am totally getting my butt kick during my workouts, I enjoy how I feel after I workout. I wanted salmon for lunch today after my workout, but when I went to cook it, it just didn't smell good. So that was a total bust. Chicken teryaki for dinner tonight. Yum. I finally made out a meal plan for the rest of the month.  I am very proud of myself.  And it has been 18 days since I have had a Dr. Pepper!  I don't even crave it anymore. I use to crave them so bad, now on my days off and if we go out to eat, I just drink water. I feel so much better when I don't drink Dr. Pepper.  I am having less headaches than I use to.  Only 73 days until our trip.  So much to do before then.  Got to get my butt in gear, big time.

Stressed!

I have been so stressed out today.  It was a long, extremely stressful day at work.  I needed a serious break.  I am starting to look forward to having a week off next week. There was times today that I wanted a bunching bag and times that I wanted to cry and coming home to cook a meal, in which was gonna take at least an hr was the last thing that I wanted to do. And I have to go back to work in the morning. To add to that, we are having a big storm tonight.  Thunderstorm watch and tornado watch.  It's thundering like crazy. Yesterday and today I have burned at least 1000 calories over what I have consumed.  I am just waiting for the weight to start dropping.  I was a little disappointed this morning when the scale hasn't moved, but I think that maybe I shouldn't weigh myself more than once a week, but some days I just want to see.  I just wish it was as easy to take the weight off as it was to put it on.  Way to much stress today.  I really hope that tomorrow is a lot less stressful than today or I may need a longer vacation than a week.  Big plans for next week while I am staying home. Gonna sort through toys and clothes and figure out to garage sale and what to keep for the girls and us. Also I'm gonna make myself go to the gym everyday and eat healthier.  If I can do it for a whole week straight then it will get easier to do.  I seem to fall apart of my days off so a whole week at home will be a challenge I'm sure.  Wish me luck

Disapointment

I was so excited to see how many calories I would burn but I ended up disappointed when my calorie counter said that I only burned a little over 300.  I really hope that it was a mistake cause it felt like I burned twice as much as that. On the plus side I am averaging around 3000 calories burned everyday and around 10,000 steps per day.  The girls are looking forward to our trip.  I am actually looking forward to my stay cation next week.  I have 3 training sessions next week.  I have a lot of but kicking to do & a short period of time to do it in. Only 11 more weeks.  Yikes!

New Streak

Have a mentioned that I love my body media!  I love it!  It's been 11 days without a Dr. Pepper!  I'm very excited.  I am so proud of myself.  I can't believe that I have gone 11 days without a Dr. Pepper and I am not craving it at all.  This is getting easier every day.  Now my bigger problem seems to be fast food and eating out to much. We eat out way to much. But that is a work in progress. My goal for steps is 5000/day and I'm up to over 8000 & I've burned almost 3000 today.  I'm excited to see how much I burn while working out.  I was gonna go to the gym today, but then we had a surprise tee ball practice, so no gym.  And there is a tee ball game tomorrow, so no gym tomorrow either. On wed though I have an 1hr of training, so I am looking forward to that and excited to see how much calories I burn doing that.  I know I can do this, it is just gonna be a long journey.  If I can kick the fast food/eating out problem like I have kicked the Dr. Pepper problem then things will be so much easier.

Happy Easter

Happy Easter everyone!  Today was weigh in.  I'm down a couple of lbs!!  Yay!  I ate a little to much for lunch and was definitely feeling full, but I didn't eat so much that I felt like I was gonna hurl, so that is a good thing.  I had a fun time a my parents with the girls. We had a good Easter dinner and the girls had a fun time hunting eggs.   I am loving my new body media.  Today was only the second day to wear it, but my sleep was not quite 8hrs but over 7 so I guess I can't be too picky.  I'm excited to wear it tomorrow at work and see how much I burn at work. I'm super tired and gonna have to go to bed soon.  Ugh. Only 12 more weeks until our trip. I have a very short time limit and a TON to get done.

Egg Hunting

Today we took the girls Easter egg hunting.  They had a blast!  I burned over 400 calories walking around, so I'm feeling good too. I finally got my body media all set up & I'm excited. Gonna start my menu planning today.  I bought a month whiteboard to write down our menu on and a little one to put a shopping list on.  Hopefully that will help us. Got to do some laundry and fill some Easter eggs for our own little egg hunt, which because of the nice downpour this afternoon, we get to do inside. Tonight it's skyping with the grandparents and opening their Easter gifts from them.  Elizabeth and daddy are playing wii golf and it is quite a show to watch. Scarlett is taking a much needed nap.  Right now is the perfect time to get some of the Easter stuff done and here I am sitting on the couch, totally unmotivated.  Last night Jeff slept with the girls in the tent outside.  They have been wanted to do that since we moved here.  Well, I didn't.  My back would have been killing me and I'm not sure I would have been able to move all day.  I think it might have to do with my weight, hopefully I will be able to sleep in a tent of the ground without killing my back.  I slept in the house with the windows open and I can tell you that the neighbors have an annoying, loud barking yappy dog that barks all night off and on.  Scarlett woke up at one point screaming cause she had no idea where she was.  So I was sleeping on and off all night.  I could seriously use a nap today.  I'll share our menu plan when I finally get it done.

Mini Golf

After an extremely long day at work we went out to eat for dinner.  I was full but didn't over do it, and I hadn't had lunch today(surprise, surprise). Then we took the girls to miniature golf.  They enjoyed it, for a while.  It was super busy and all because of a family that was just goofing around. 5 adults and 1 kid.  We got home and I had a surprise waiting.  I got a body media!  Yay, I am so excited.  It will help me count my calories and it tracks to my phone!  It is sad to get so excited of things like this, but it's who I am.  It is official!  We bought plane tickets this afternoon.  We will be flying back to PA this summer for a week.  I just hope that I can keep it together.  The last time I flew, people probably thought I was mental, which for those that know me, might say well you are a little off your rocker.  But no seriously every time I fly, I seem to get worse and I hate it more than the last time. I'm excited to see my friends and catch up with everyone.  I'm sure the girls will love it.  They talk about flying on an airplane at least once a week since we started talking about.  We haven't flown as a family since Elizabeth was 1, so 4 years ago.  Now we have 2 kids, and they are old, so tons more stuff and we have to keep 2 little ones entertained for 5 hours on the plane. Hopefully the girls will be a good distraction for me. Probably gonna have to talk to the Dr. about getting something for anxiety, just in case I start acting like a basket case.  I have never taken anything, so hopefully it won't make me wired or totally  knock me out.  We will see I guess.  Tomorrow is gonna be an interesting day.  We are gonna go Easter egg hunting in the morning at a park and then possibly again later at our house. Then it's cleaning day and getting some laundry done, since it doesn't get done all week, we have tons to do. Need to make a meal plan too, cause our meals have gotten out of control.  I need to get things under control before I start school again and before we have any more kids.  So, wish me luck!

Change of Plans

Well today I was suppose to have an hour training session.  I was even planning on going in 30 mins early to have a nice warm up, and then things changed.  I got home from work and my dad(aka-Papa, aka-the babysitter) told me that our youngest just wasn't feeling well. She slept for 3hrs and then fell asleep again for 30mins until I got home.  She only sleeps that much when she isn't feeling well.  She was super fussy and I'm not sure what is going on with her, so I had a change of plans.  I didn't want to take her to the gym if she wasn't feeling well.  Poor thing.  I have to go shopping to get somethings for Easter.  I tend to go WAY over board.  I promised Jeff that I wouldn't go overboard. We will see I guess. Elizabeth wants to hunt Easter eggs in the backyard.  so I have to buy all of the stuff for that, since we can't seem to find anything since we moved. They are saying it might rain on sat, so our little egg hunt might end up being inside. I guess we will see. I just wish there was an easy way to lose weight and I didn't have to work so hard. It sucks! I'm telling you it is way easier to put the weight on, than take it off.  Ugh!  Tons of pressure & a short period of time to work with.

Old Habits

Well that saying "Old Habits Die Hard". It is totally true.  We use to eat out all of the time. And this week we fell back into that habit.  We don't have the money to be eating out, but I have eaten out at least one meal everyday this week.  I don't even want to know what the scale says right now. So, we decided no more eating out.  It got out of control this week.  We need to cut it out.  I am very capable of cooking, I just don't.  I have still yet to make a meal plan.  tomorrow I have another session with the trainer & I need to write out a meal plan & make us stick to it.  I have a a ton of work to do, even more now.  & a shorter period of time to do it in.  I have my work cut out for me.

Still getting use to it

Well clearly I am still getting use to this blog thing.  I got on here yesterday and checked my email and facebook, and looked up some stuff for the girls for the airplanes and then closed the computer and didn't even think about writing my blog for yesterday.  So I guess I am still getting use to writing this blog. Had training again this morning.  And found out that Elizabeth is having her pictures taken tonight.  Elizabeth just informed me that she wants to hunt Easter eggs on Saturday in our back yard.  I have no idea where our eggs are so I either have to find the eggs or buy some new ones.  I have no idea where they girls Easter baskets.  Oh the joys of moving.  Well, Jeff may not love his new job, but it looks like his bonus might make it work working.  It is just totally strange, I actually enjoy my training sessions. My biggest problem is keeping my food intact.  It is a work in progress I guess, but I have a short period of time in which I need to lose some weight.  It is a good thing I guess, though a bit stressful too.  I guess I really just need to focus and be serious and pray.  I believe this is as much as a spiritual as it is mental and a physical battle.  I have a long road ahead of me.