Long Day

Well, this morning, my legs weren't killing me like yesterday, but they were still sore. I made some goals for the rest of the month. My goal date is Nov 4th. My 1st goal is to lose 5lbs. My 2nd goal is to walk 25miles total by Nov 4th. With a goal to walk/jog 25miles in a little less than 4weeks, I will have to workout if I want to achieve that goal. With a small short term goal to work for, might be just what I need to keep myself on track, though we are approaching the holiday months. And lots of triggers and temptations. This will be a challenge. And it has been quite cold, so I can only imagine what the races in Nov through about March. It is gonna be COLD. It was a long day at work. Ended up being over 11hrs. And back at it tomorrow morning. I haven't been doing so well with reading my bible, writing my blog or not drinking Dr. Pepper. Well reading my bible. It hasn't been everyday, but more like every 2-3 days. Writing my blog, I did ok for a couple of days, then kind of forgot about it again.  I'm trying to remember to write everyday. And well no drinking Dr. Pepper, let's not even talk about that.  Ok, we will talk about it. It's more like drinking 1-2/day. So that is a work in progress.

4 miles

Well, on Sat we ended up not walking a 5K or 10K. We decided that when we got their we wanted to do the 5K, but after a long line of just trying to get to a parking spot, we picked up our packs and chips. We missed the start to the 5K. So we started out on the starting line of the 10K. Then came the rain and sleet. Well during the walk, came the thunder. Both my mom and I were like, um no way. We don't do thunder, cause where there is thunder, there might be lighting and we definitely don't do lighting. So we ended up walking a 4mile in about 1hr 22mins. My feet were hurting afterwards, quite a bit actually. When I took my shoes off, my feet were all wrinkly, so they must have gotten a bit wet from the rain. After a couple of hours, my feet weren't hurting anymore and my legs felt fine, so I thought I was doing great. However on Sunday, holy cow. My legs were sore! All day! I could barely walk. Man, I need to start working out everyday. I went on a cooking binge on Sunday. Jello, pumpkin, muffins, cookies. I was in a cooking mood. Our next race is at the end of the month, only a 5K.

5K or 10K?

Ok, so now I am a bit annoyed. I wrote out this whole blog and then, with the click of one wrong button, the whole thing was gone.

So tomorrow is the Zoo run. My mom and I signed up for a 10K, but now we are both not so sure. The 5K starts at 8:30 and the 10K starts at 9. It is suppose to be 44 degrees during the run with only a 10-20% chance of rain. And since the last(&1st) 5K I walked, I hadn't trained for or even exercised before I ended up being sore for like the next 3 days. I'm ok if we decide to only do the 5K. The zoo is anything but flat, so we will definitely get a workout tomorrow. It is gonna be freezing compared to our last walk. It was in the 80s during the Susan G. Komen walk, so a walk in the 40s will definitely be different. But since we want to do a race every month, they will only get colder. We will decide in the morning which race we are going to do.

On another note our youngest is still sick, no fever but coughing a lot still. So she is still sleeping in our room. Which means that the oldest is sleeping in our room as well. She does not like to sleep in their room by herself. My poor baby. She handles being sick about the same as anyone else. So you can imagine. She is extremely tired and cranky. Fussing all of the time. She is sleeping better, but just cranky all of the time. Anyone with kids understands what we are going through right now. My poor baby :(

This is my baby-Scarlett
#1 is when she is feeling good                                   #2 is about how is feels now

This is my oldest baby-Elizabeth

Exhausted

Well our youngest (34months) had a fever of 102 on Sunday night into Monday. So her and I stayed home yesterday.  It was quite a bit of fighting and trying to get her to take some medicine.  According to her, "She's not sick", so you can imagine how well that went over.  Her fever went back down to normal yesterday evening. Well she is still coughing horribly, but refuses to take medicine, without a fight. She has been sleeping pretty good on normal nights, but since she was sick. The last two nights she hasn't slept so well. Last night she woke up about every 30mins, so I am exhausted. So with that being said, I barely made it through work, and ended up drinking a Dr. Pepper.  Also gave myself a headache. The plan tonight is to go to sleep extra early. Only 4 days left until my first 10K. Did I mention that it is in the zoo & the zoo is anything but flat. It should be quite interesting.

October Goals

Here are my October goals

Cut out Dr. Pepper(well I drank 2 today, so starting tomorrow)
Exercise in some form every day.
Read my bible everyday
Start walking everyday
Start training again
Lose 5lbs
Walk 20miles (including races)
Blog everyday

I LOVE Dr. Pepper, but it costs me too much $ and I tend to not drink water when I drink Dr. Pepper. Plus I get headaches when I drink it and when I have drank it in a while. So i am thinking that I need to give it up (again)

I'm back

Well it has been like 4 months since I have blogged. I can't believe it has been that long. It didn't seem like it, but once you say it out loud, yikes. Well, I'm back. I walked my 1st 5K in Sept. The Susan G. Komen. Walked it with my mom in 1hr 7mins. My goal was to finish in around 1hr. So only 7 mins over is not so bad and considering that there was congestion at the beginning and end, it might have been closer to 1hr. Well I didn't train at all. And the 5K was doable, but my legs were KILLING me for like the next 3-4 days. But hey at least I finished. Yay! My plan was to start working out everyday after that, but it has been a couple of weeks, and yep you guessed it, haven't worked out at all. My mom and I are gonna start walking about 1 race a month. Oct we have two scheduled. On Sat is my 1st 10K. A Zoo run. And a 10K, yep you heard right. No that may end up to be a total disaster. But my goal is to walk this week, so that a 10K will not be a total shock and make my legs shut down for the whole next week.

Anniversay

Well, today is our 7th anniversary.  And we didn't even get to spend the day together.  We both worked in the morning and Jeff is still at work currently.  Our plans are to go out to a nice dinner on Saturday.  We haven't been on a date, in quite a while.  I can't even remember the last time we went out by ourselves. I'm kind of excited about that.  I LOVE our girls, but it will be nice to have a date night.  Jeff's interview went well, and now we are just praying and waiting to hear back about the job.  I am praying for a job, that pays well, so I can cut my hours back.  I so badly want to be a stay at home mom again, and though I doubt that will happen again full time, I hope to be able to only work 2-3 days per week, and still have some money. Work was stressing me out today, not so much, this is stressful, but the fact that I can do the work of 2-3 other nurses and they are getting paid, quite a bit more than me( we are talking at least $10 more).  It just annoys me and frustrates me. Which is partly why I want to drop my hours and be a stay at home mom again. I am at home relaxing watching my babies & I love every minute of it! 

Relax day

Today was suppose to be a clean the house, completely day, but somehow it ended up being a chill out and relax day.  I really hate having to spend my one or two days off a week cleaning, but since I tend to work around 10hrs/day, cleaning when I get home is the last thing I want to do.  Sundays has become a day to go to my parents house and hang out and have lunch/dinner, but now we have small group with our new church on Sunday nights.  Our family day will have to change, maybe Saturdays.  I guess we will figure that out. I spend a big part of the afternoon working on a menu plan and what foods we could eat this month.  My goal is to try and use up food that is already in the house, instead of being a bunch of new food that we usually do.  I have figured out almost enough food for the whole month, between meals and leftovers.  I am actually excited. We seem to spend a ton of money on food.  Buying food for the house, and then somehow ended up going out to eat too.  Our goals is to get to the end of the month and not eat out anymore.  We only have 25 more days until we leave to PA.  I am happy about going on our little vacation to see family and friends, but I am still nervous about the flight, and the fact that I have heard rumors that the airline we are flying tend to not be nice to bigger passengers and families with small kids.  So, we will see.  My goal is to workout everyday, whether I can make it to the gym or not, just work out for at least 30 mins.  And no more Dr. Pepper.  I have started to get headaches again, and I think it is because I fell off the wagon, and landed face first. So, here is to tomorrow, day 1 with no Dr. Pepper

It's been a LONG time

Well, clearly May was not so good at blogging.  So this month I am committing to blogging more.  Last week I had three training sessions.  We started keeping track of my weight and measurements instead of just weight. So I learned something new, I have lost 22lbs since I started.  But actually I have lost 33lbs of fat and gained 11 lbs of muscles.  I was totally amazed.  Also, I had to run/walk for 12mins and see how far I could get.  I did better than I thought I would. I made it 0.73miles.  So, my goal is a 12 min mile.  It will be a challenge, but I am excited about it.  I surprised myself with the weight loss and especially about the running. I run much longer than I thought I could.  During my training I have started to work on strengthening my knees and all of the muscles I will be using during my runs. I have been working on cleaning the house today(very slow going) and working on my play list for my workouts.  I need my music to be upbeat and hard and some of my songs just weren't cutting it for me. My goal is to start going to the gym everyday, or at least running outside everyday. I have big running goals, so I need to start working toward them.  On the very happy news, Jeff has a job interview, for a job in his degree.  He really wants this job & so do I.  If he gets this job, then I can go down to part time and go to school part time, and be a stay at home mom part time!  Yay!   Well, also Jeff informed me today, that he wants another baby.  So, that is a discussion, meanwhile the other two kids are screaming and driving each other nuts outside.  The real question we need to ask ourselves is are we crazy!  And how crazy are we!

Sickness vs. Weight loss

I have been battling a head/chest cold since late last week.  I have my husband to thank for sharing his cold. I've been coughing a lot all week.  But on the other side, I have lost 5lbs this week!!  Amazing!  I looked and discovered that I have lost 26lb!  Unbelievable!  I cleaned out most of the cabinets and threw away a lot of food.  Jeff said that he was going to get serious about changing out lifestyles and getting in shape and losing weight.  I have been looking at runs in our area. I am excited to start running, though that will no be happening right now, until after this cold is gone.  Tomorrow is another training session.  I hope I am feeling better than I have been.  We will see I guess.  Right now, it's almost time for tee ball, and these kids are crazy.  School is almost over for Elizabeth and I have to get my stuff together for school in the fall. So much to do, and only 38 more days until we leave for PA.  I am still a bit freaked out about flying, for both reasons. Got to keep at it.  If I keep going at the pace I am, wow!  I will be super proud and amazed.  It's a long, hard journey. 

Much needed day off

It's been 5 days since I have written, so let's start from the beginning. On Thursday I ended up working 14 hours and while I was at work, our house had a flood.  So our house has some little holes in the walls and had tons of fans trying to dry out the walls. Our house was unbelievable HOT and not to mention that we have four bodies all sleeping in our room, since the girls rooms were flooded. Hopefully tonight, we can move the girls back into their rooms. Today is my first day off that I did not have a training session planned.  It was actually nice, to have a day off, to do things at home.  I am attempting to clean the kitchen and dinning room. Jeff said to me last night, that he would go on a diet with me.  By that I mean, that he will actually be on board with me and changing our lifestyles.  I told Jeff that the charts say that his weight should be around 200-215.  He's over 6feet.  I said you don't have that much to lose and then he tells me how much he weighs now, which is 20lbs more than I thought he weighed.  So I told Jeff I would figure it out for us, and we can start getting serious. Very serious!  There is only 45 more days until our vacation.  I am not doing as well, as I wanted to be.  Only 45 more days.  I have already started freaking out about this trip.  I had planes, and I am already starting to get anxious about it. So much to do, too little time. Time to kick our butts(mostly mine) in gear!

Kind of Back at it

Well, today was a wonderful day off!  1st day training in over a week, and 1st day working out in over a week.  I needed a good butt kicking. I have lost 2lbs that I gained since starting work again, but I still have 2 more pounds to lose to get back to what I was at on my stay cation.  It's been really hard.  I only work 5 days this pay week, but it ended up being 60hours. Yikes.  I don't really enjoy working this much, but when you are a nurse, you can't just leave at 3.  You have to make sure you are done with everything.  It makes some days awful long. My training session was good.  Well, I didn't accomplish much at home, gonna do some laundry now. I needed to do some grocery shopping(and then some). Well, I had no idea, that walking around walmart for almost 2 hours would burn that many calories, over 400.  Amazed. Well, I still haven't managed to kick the Dr. Pepper habit again.  I was doing so well, over a month without any Dr. Pepper.  Now, the last couple of day, I have been averaging about 1-2/day.  it was a hard habit to break,and clearly I have to break it again.  I just need to go cold turkey again, like before.  It's a hard road, hopefully someday it will get a little easier.  I did do a test, small test.  I wanted to see how many push-ups & crunches I could do in 1 min.  Well push-ups(girly ones)- I did 32 in 1 min, and crunches I did 32 in 1 min.  Surprisingly.  I am gonna do this every month. I am curious about how it will change and how many I will be able to do in 1 min, if I keep working out losing weight.

Tee ball

It was another LONG day at work.  Let me put it to you this way.  I have worked 4 days in the pay period so far.  So, that is 32 hours.  Well, I'm at 50 hours so far & I have one more day in my work week.  Today, I had to rush out of work, as soon as I was done and try to rush home, in rush hour traffic.  Well after about 10 mins of stop and go, turns out there was a 4 car accident.  I finally made it home, and had to throw the kids in the car, cause Elizabeth had a tee ball game.  So, dinner ended up being hot dogs, and mac & cheese again.  Hopefully I have more time to make some dinner.  I am craving some salmon, with potatoes and beets again.  & this time I will remember to put all of my food away before I go to bed. Other than running around at work today and being slightly stressed.  No working out, but I did manage to drink a ton of water.  Tomorrow, hopefully I will be able to leave work at a reasonable time and get some work out in.

Starting Over

Well, the downward spiral started about Wednesday, I would say.  My one month streak of no Dr. Pepper came do an end. This weekend I let myself buy things that I had been keeping out of the house, and they are all gone.  All the cookies, ice cream, Dr. Pepper, it's all gone. I'm starting over right now.  The bad/good thing is that I didn't gain any weight since Thursday, the bad thing is that I didn't lose any weight since Thursday.  This week is kick my own butt week, big time!  I set some hefty goals for the rest of the month. I set the goals to drink at least 8 cups/day, 10,000 steps/day, and 30 mins of exercise/day. My weight loss goal is to finally get to a lose of 10% of my starting body weight.  I am getting closer.  I have 14lbs to go!  Only 14.  I think I can do that.  I have 25 days left in the month, which ends up adding to 1/2lb per day. I think I can accomplish all of these goals, if I really work hard and set my mind to it.  It's gonna be hard work, but I think I can do it.  This week, we have tee ball and the zoo trip.  I'm excited to wear my bodymedia and see how many calories I burn at the zoo.  Hopefully by Saturday, I will have lost at least a couple of pounds.  I've got my work set out for me this week. 

Off the deep end

Well, I think the title states it all. Today, started out bad right from the get go.  I ran out of my smoothie drinks, which I have been drinking every morning.  So, what did I decide to opt for instead. Donut holes and a Dr. Pepper.  Yep, makes total sense, doesn't it.  Off to work, in which my 8 hr day, turned into an 11+ hr day, with only 1 potty break.  One of the families brought in CiCi's cinnamon rolls and somewhere during the day, I probably ended up eating like 5-10 rolls.  And thus the spiral continued.  Well, 11 some hours after I started work, I finally got to leave, and I was majorly stressed, and hungry, and just done for the day, but knowing full well that I still have to go shopping for Elizabeth's project and a birthday party.  On the way home, I stopped and bought dinner, Arby's for me, McD's for the girls, neither is a good choice. After being home for about an hour, we (me and the girls) headed out to the store, in which will remain nameless.  All I was going there for was a white pillowcase.  Well, all they had was king size.  Annoyed, which is not helping my day.  After an hour at the store, the girls wanted ice cream.  Sonic, it was.  After 30 mins there, finally we made it back home. And me a Reese's blast.  I only ate half, but still.  What a day, ugh.  Tomorrow is another day.  Most likely another 11hr day.  It makes for a LONG day, but on the bright side, I have the weekend off.  I can't wait.  I'm so tired lately, which probably has a lot to do with what I have been eating.  My back has been totally killing me all week.  I'm not sure what I did, but it just won't stop hurting. Tomorrow is another day, and hopefully a much better day.

Wagon down

Yesterday I felt so good.  I had so much energy.  Well, today was a different story. I was so tired this morning, for most of the morning.  I brought a clif bar to work today, which is what I brought yesterday.  Well yesterday, one bar kept me going all day.  Today, however.  I was so hungry, I had finished the whole bar off, by 9AM.  I was so stinking hungry today. I have no idea what was going on today. So, Jeff brought me lunch, which ended up being pizza hut.  Not bad.  And for dinner, taco bell, and then some ice cream.  And after all of that, I am still hungry. I just have no idea what my body is going through today, but I am sure that I will be paying for it tomorrow on the scale.  My body has being going through something crazy this whole week. I think that I am gonna have to sit down and figure out what I should eat every day, for every meal.  Maybe that will make it easier on myself. I have to get this figured out. I just have to keep reminding myself. It's a lifestyle change, it's a lifestyle change.

Busy, Busy

Today was totally crazy.  Ended up being at work for 11hrs. I brought a clif bar for my snack/lunch and was kind of munching on it all day.  I also brought a chocolate pudding, though I didn't end up getting to eat it. As soon as I got home, I threw the kids in the car, because Elizabeth had tee ball practice, in which we were 1/2 hr late. Then we had to go to the grocery store, cause we were out of milk. I finally got home at 7:30 for the rest of the night.  I ended up having 2 sandwiches, a little bit of chips and some ice cream(after which I felt way to full). I didn't even eat enough calories to get in my calorie range. But this morning when I weighed myself, I was back down 2lbs!  I was so happy about that.  All day at work, I felt so energetic, even though I was so tired when I woke up this morning. It was a LONG day, but I felt so great.  I really hope I feel the same way tomorrow. Hopefully going to bed sooner too.  I just saw that I walked over 12,000 steps today, I think that is the most I have walked in one day.  I just looked up how many steps in a mile, and the walking website says that it is about 2,000 steps in 1 mile.  So I walked about 6 miles today!  That is awesome!!!  I am taking the night off from working out, but tomorrow, is another day. 

Feeling good

Well, yesterday I was so frustrated.  Today, I didn't gain any weight, didn't lose any either, but at least I didn't gain anymore. I took the girls to the gym after school. I ended up doing intervals on the treadmill, only for like 40 mins, but I burned almost 400 calories!  Holy smoke!!  Was kind of hungry all day today, but I was so busy, I didn't seem to notice for most of the day.  For dinner, Salmon, beets and red potatoes, it was very good. Though Jeff was not very happy about what I chose to make, since he is not a fan of beets or salmon. I have to remind myself everyday that this is a lifestyle change. I wish I could eat anything I want to, but that is what has gotten me at this point in the first place. I don't really like working out, but I know I need to, and afterwards I feel good.  I feel good about myself for working out.  So it seems like I will have to force myself to workout, because I know it is good for my body and I feel good afterwards. It is a daily struggle, but I am not alone.  I can do this!!!

Biking, Sit-ups, Push-ups

Well the title says it all.  Last night I did some biking, sit-ups & push-ups.  Well tonight I decided to do the same, but wanted to see if I could do more than I did last night.  Well I did it! I ended up doing 16mins on the bike, 120 sit-ups and 120 push-ups!!!! I am amazed at myself. I can't believe it!  I was so frustrated this morning when I weighed in.  I had gained 3lbs since Wednesday, and I had kept in my calorie range all week.  I was just beside myself and didn't know what to do. But then my husband pointed out that when I was staying at home, I was eating more.  It's true.  I was eating 3 meals and fruit in between the meals, and my calorie range was lower, but since in range.  When I am at work I don't eat for hours.  So tomorrow, I am gonna try to bring fruit and eat in between and bring a lunch too.  I will somehow try to figure this out.  This is a lifestyle change not, a diet.  I love my trainer though.  I texted her this morning about all of my frustrations and she gave me some words of encouragement.  I love all of my supporter!  Tomorrow is working out in the park day.  It's a mini boot camp.  I'll write about that tomorrow.  I am kind of nervous and excited!

Very tired

I was going to go to the gym after work, but I ended up going to walmart to get some headphones, so I can start listening to my music while I workout.  I ate, way to much for dinner and was resting when I decided that I need to get off my butt and work out.  So I decided to use my big ball that I bought.  I ended up working out for 51 mins and did 100 sit ups, 50 push ups, and 10 mins on the exercise bike.  The 51 mins included some walking and dressing the girls after their bathes.  I am so tired right now.  I guess, even though it wasn't a long workout, it was effective. Well, I got a good work out in and even though I ate way to much for dinner, I still stayed within my calorie range.  So I'm happy about that.

Tired

It is weird.  Even though I wake up earlier on days when I have to work, I go to bed earlier too.  I seem more tired than when I get to sleep in and my 2 year old wakes me up every hour during the night. Well, I didn't end up working out today either.  I guess I need to get back to the swing of things.  I think I will take clothes with me tomorrow and go to the gym right after work.  That way, I have no excuse and I can get my time in. It looks like my two days off this week are Thursday/Friday.  I'm gonna have to kick my own butt tomorrow & make me get back at it.  Not sure what I am gonna do, but probably some intervals on the treadmill or elliptical and some strength training.  I guess we will see but I have to make myself go, no matter what!  I just have to make myself.  I lost 5lbs this week.  It is a necessity to work out, even if I don't want to, I need to.  I need to make myself. Every day.

Day off

Well, today I was planning on going to the gym, but then I didn't leave work until 4:30, and my mom and grandma were planning on coming over at 5:30, so I didn't have enough time. Well, my mom decided not to come today, so I ate some dinner, salmon, red potatoes and cauliflower, Yum. then, surprise Jeff came home early. So, it looks like today is a day off from working out.  Now, I am gonna put together Scarlett's new toddler bed we bought her. Hopefully she will sleep all night. I have stayed in my calorie range all week. I am so proud of myself. I was hungry at work, but at the same time, I didn't have time to do anything, so I kept myself busy, plus I don't have money with me at work, so I can't buy anything to eat, even if I get tempted. Today, at work, I really wish I was still a stay at home mom. I liked being at home this last week, and today, was a horrible wake up shock. Someday, maybe again. Maybe. Well, to get to work! Tomorrow, hopefully I will be going to the gym, but I will have to go by myself, so I might just end up taking a walk with the girls at home.

Dreading work

Tomorrow is my first day of work after a long week at home.  My kids drive my crazy, but I love staying home with them.  I have been to the gym everyday this week, and am doubtful that I will be able to make it tomorrow.  Maybe, if I leave work on time(which I can count on one hands the times that has actually happened). My mother and grandmother are coming over for dinner tomorrow night. Well, despite the fact that my 2 yr old woke me up every hour last night from midnight til 7 when we got up, I still made it to the gym for an hour. I am hoping that switching from morning work outs to evening workouts won't make a difference in my weight loss.  I have gotten very serious this week and have already started to see results!  I am super stoked about this!  I'm getting more confident everyday that I can do this!

Change of Plans

Well I went to the gym this morning for another training session, but there was a change of plans, due to my trainer.  Not a prob.  I just did some intervals training on the treadmill. I walked for 2 mins and ran for 1.  I did that 3 times, then started incline workout. Burned 500 calories in 40 mins!  Super happy about that.  Tomorrow is my last day of stay cation.  I didn't really get as much accomplished as I hoped, but somehow I have managed to keep myself busy.  I have enjoyed this stay cation, which I could keep being a stay at home mom and keep getting paid.  It took me all week being home, but yesterday and today I have stayed well within my calorie range and felt full.  My dinner wasn't that big, but I was overly stuffed.  Not sure what I am gonna make for dinner tomorrow, but probably gonna make some salmon for lunch. I love some salmon, especially cooked in lemon juice. I still don't like working out, but I find myself getting excited to try running. I was researching forerunner and comparing all of them.  If only I had some extra money.  Someday, not sure which one I want, but someday I will get a forerunner.  It will be great for training for 5K and marathons.

Gu!!

Worked out this morning for 30 mins with my trainer and 40 mins on my own. I was warming up for my training and I decided that I wanted to try and run.  The last time I ran it was for about 1 min and I thought I would die.  Today I ran for 2 mins straight, then walked another 2 mins and ran other min. I was surprised and impressed myself.  Tomorrow I am gonna try and do it again, longer if I can. I printed off a 5K walk/run plan from sparkpeople and I am gonna start training for a 5K, even though I am not sure which one I am gonna run in. After my workout I got home and was getting hungry.  I decided to try the chocolate Gu that I got yesterday.  I honestly wasn't sure, I mean it's, gel.  It was AMAZING!!! It tasted just like chocolate frosting.  Yum! So good. I was so curious about Gu, since Runs for Cookies kept talking about taking it on her runs.  I'm excited to start training for a 5K!  It seems so weird that I hate running, yet am so excited to start running and training.  Strange, but exciting.

New equipment

We ventured to Dick's sporting goods to find some kid golf clubs for our daughters.  They didn't have a set for our youngest, but we got a set for our 5 year old.  She is super excited and is currently out golfing with daddy.  While we were there I was checking out some other things.  I looked for a forerunner, or something similar.  Slimkatie uses forerunner and loves it.  She talks so much about it, I want one.  I think it would be a really good thing for training for my 5k and half-marathon, which I will start soon.  Well, they didn't have any, so on to the next thing I went.  I decided to try and find one of those big stability balls.  I had one a couple of years ago, but it was way to small for me.  Size and height wise. My trainer told me how to test the size and I figured out that when I had bought one before, I just picked one, but this time I checked out the size and I should have the right one.  I am very excited about this.  Also, another one of Slimkatie's favorites is something called Gu.  I was just so curious but I couldn't find it anywhere.  Well, I find small little packs at Dicks, and got a couple to try.  I really hope they are as good as I am thinking they are.  I'll let you know.

Sunburned

We had a nice day of tee ball.  Lots of sun, and forgot the sunscreen. I am very sunburned. It was quite interesting watching coaches teach 6 yr olds how to cheat at tee-ball.  I am so glad that my daughter is not on that team, and so far, it seems as though she has the best coach. Did some walking at the game. My original menu planner turned out to be a bust.  I forgot to plan in the days with tee ball and there is no way I can work all day then come home and cook lasagna in about an hr then make it to tee ball. Tonight I am making a new menu planner. I am learning that I seem to be a bored eater.  I am a little bit of a stress eater, but on the other side, sometimes when I am stressed I don't eat at all and just want to blow off steam and punch something.  That is why I want to invest in a kick boxing dummy.  Then I am getting a good workout and letting steam off. Boxing stuff is a big investment, so I have to save up to buy that stuff. I also have to buy some new shoes.  My shoes are getting worn out and I think that is partly why my feet are killing me. I'm sure it has something to do with my weight too.  If I can lose some weight, then my feet will hopefully stop hurting.

Competely sore

Had another training session today.  I felt good going into my session and even after my workout, but a couple of hours later.  Man my legs are killing.  Still tonight, I am so tired and sore.  Tomorrow is more tee ball, 3rd game of the week. Working on my list of things I want to accomplish.  I'm not sure that it's gonna be a 30 before 30, but maybe something like a bucket list. Well, I've had two days off and have yet to accomplish anything at the house. I guess I have a lot to do the next 4 days. I just seem to find things to fill up my days and don't really get anything done at the house. I looked up the rock and roll marathon and there is one coming to Texas in November.  I think that is a goal for me.  Not sure I will be able to do a marathon, but maybe the 1/2 marathon. I'm gonna try and find a 5k to do between now and then. Probably won't be able to run either one, but i think I can finish them by walking them.  I'll work up to running.

Training

Had a good training session today. I was really craving some salmon today, but then I realized I didn't have enough time to go to the store after the gym, so we went after preschool. I ended up buy a lot more than I went to the store for, but bought a ton of fruit and some almonds. Yum!  Well, since we didn't get home until after 5 and then the girls decided that they wanted to take baths. I didn't get the groceries put away til after 6. I just ended up having a tuna sandwich and some goldfish. Been a long time since I've had that. I'm still trying to get use to whole wheat bread. For a girl who grew up on white bread, wheat bread just doesn't take the same. But I'm trying to get use to it.  I use to eat tons of bread, but I don't really eat that much bread anymore. 21 days free from Dr. Pepper!!!! I've got training again tomorrow morning. Hopefully  I sleep better than last night. Woke up with a headache, so it's been a long day. Other than some grocery shopping I haven't really accomplished much today.  I guess tomorrow will be a busy day, then tee ball game. I started following a fellow sparker's blog yesterday. She is writing about journey, like me. And she has a list of 30 things to do before 30.  I love that idea. I have 1 1/2yrs before I'm 30, but I am definitely gonna think about making a list like that.

Staycation

And thus the stay cation starts today. I went to my parents house to get some boxes of stuff to go through.  It is amazing how much stuff we have gathered over the years and how much baby and little kid stuff we have and our oldest is only 5.  So that is one of my projects, along with doing tons of laundry and revamping the kitchen and living room.  Huge plans.  Also trying to be strick with staying within my calorie range. It seems to be hard for me, especially at home. Most days I seem to go off the deep end when I get home.  I need to force myself to stay in my calorie range and working out, so that I can achieve my goals.  I have a new goal, to be like Slimkatie and lose one dress size a month.  That would be amazing!  Lots of work to do.  I have a huge goal and my time keep getting shorter.  I am beginning to freak out a bit.  I just pray that I can achieve some of these goals before our vacation at the end of June. Pray for me.  It is just really hard to take the weight off.  I really just wish it was as easy to take the weight off as it is to put it on. You don't even realize that you are putting the weight on, when it is just a pound here and a pound there. Ugh!

One day left

I only have one day left to work for this week.  Yay!  I'm definitely excited, but I have a ton of work to do this week and next.  My new body media measures how well I sleep.  It seems that even though I am laying down for 8 hrs I am actually only getting about 6-7 hrs of sleep.  And to top it off, for some reason our 2 year old won't sleep in her room anymore. She has been sleeping on the floor in our room.  I just don't know what to do with her. Even though I have given up Dr. Pepper, I/we seem to be eating out WAY to much.  It doesn't help to give up soda and eat a ton of calories on junk food when we go out to eat.  I just have to quit eating out cold turkey, just like the soda.  Ugh.  It is so hard to lose weight and then a fellow sparker (sparkpeople). She has lost 50% of her weight and has kept it off for a couple of years. I read yesterday that while she was losing weight she lost one dress size a month.  Now that was a total kick in the butt. I want to be able to be able to do that.  I have a lot of work to do.  I am gonna have to kick my own butt.

Glorious day off!

What a glorious day off!  I am loving it.  Worked out this morning, 30 minutes with the trainer, 30 minutes on my own.  On a happy note I burned over 300 calories during both my training and another 300 during my own workout!  Yay!!!  And I only have to work two days this week!  Have I mentioned lately that I love my new body media!  Even though I am totally getting my butt kick during my workouts, I enjoy how I feel after I workout. I wanted salmon for lunch today after my workout, but when I went to cook it, it just didn't smell good. So that was a total bust. Chicken teryaki for dinner tonight. Yum. I finally made out a meal plan for the rest of the month.  I am very proud of myself.  And it has been 18 days since I have had a Dr. Pepper!  I don't even crave it anymore. I use to crave them so bad, now on my days off and if we go out to eat, I just drink water. I feel so much better when I don't drink Dr. Pepper.  I am having less headaches than I use to.  Only 73 days until our trip.  So much to do before then.  Got to get my butt in gear, big time.

Stressed!

I have been so stressed out today.  It was a long, extremely stressful day at work.  I needed a serious break.  I am starting to look forward to having a week off next week. There was times today that I wanted a bunching bag and times that I wanted to cry and coming home to cook a meal, in which was gonna take at least an hr was the last thing that I wanted to do. And I have to go back to work in the morning. To add to that, we are having a big storm tonight.  Thunderstorm watch and tornado watch.  It's thundering like crazy. Yesterday and today I have burned at least 1000 calories over what I have consumed.  I am just waiting for the weight to start dropping.  I was a little disappointed this morning when the scale hasn't moved, but I think that maybe I shouldn't weigh myself more than once a week, but some days I just want to see.  I just wish it was as easy to take the weight off as it was to put it on.  Way to much stress today.  I really hope that tomorrow is a lot less stressful than today or I may need a longer vacation than a week.  Big plans for next week while I am staying home. Gonna sort through toys and clothes and figure out to garage sale and what to keep for the girls and us. Also I'm gonna make myself go to the gym everyday and eat healthier.  If I can do it for a whole week straight then it will get easier to do.  I seem to fall apart of my days off so a whole week at home will be a challenge I'm sure.  Wish me luck

Disapointment

I was so excited to see how many calories I would burn but I ended up disappointed when my calorie counter said that I only burned a little over 300.  I really hope that it was a mistake cause it felt like I burned twice as much as that. On the plus side I am averaging around 3000 calories burned everyday and around 10,000 steps per day.  The girls are looking forward to our trip.  I am actually looking forward to my stay cation next week.  I have 3 training sessions next week.  I have a lot of but kicking to do & a short period of time to do it in. Only 11 more weeks.  Yikes!

New Streak

Have a mentioned that I love my body media!  I love it!  It's been 11 days without a Dr. Pepper!  I'm very excited.  I am so proud of myself.  I can't believe that I have gone 11 days without a Dr. Pepper and I am not craving it at all.  This is getting easier every day.  Now my bigger problem seems to be fast food and eating out to much. We eat out way to much. But that is a work in progress. My goal for steps is 5000/day and I'm up to over 8000 & I've burned almost 3000 today.  I'm excited to see how much I burn while working out.  I was gonna go to the gym today, but then we had a surprise tee ball practice, so no gym.  And there is a tee ball game tomorrow, so no gym tomorrow either. On wed though I have an 1hr of training, so I am looking forward to that and excited to see how much calories I burn doing that.  I know I can do this, it is just gonna be a long journey.  If I can kick the fast food/eating out problem like I have kicked the Dr. Pepper problem then things will be so much easier.

Happy Easter

Happy Easter everyone!  Today was weigh in.  I'm down a couple of lbs!!  Yay!  I ate a little to much for lunch and was definitely feeling full, but I didn't eat so much that I felt like I was gonna hurl, so that is a good thing.  I had a fun time a my parents with the girls. We had a good Easter dinner and the girls had a fun time hunting eggs.   I am loving my new body media.  Today was only the second day to wear it, but my sleep was not quite 8hrs but over 7 so I guess I can't be too picky.  I'm excited to wear it tomorrow at work and see how much I burn at work. I'm super tired and gonna have to go to bed soon.  Ugh. Only 12 more weeks until our trip. I have a very short time limit and a TON to get done.

Egg Hunting

Today we took the girls Easter egg hunting.  They had a blast!  I burned over 400 calories walking around, so I'm feeling good too. I finally got my body media all set up & I'm excited. Gonna start my menu planning today.  I bought a month whiteboard to write down our menu on and a little one to put a shopping list on.  Hopefully that will help us. Got to do some laundry and fill some Easter eggs for our own little egg hunt, which because of the nice downpour this afternoon, we get to do inside. Tonight it's skyping with the grandparents and opening their Easter gifts from them.  Elizabeth and daddy are playing wii golf and it is quite a show to watch. Scarlett is taking a much needed nap.  Right now is the perfect time to get some of the Easter stuff done and here I am sitting on the couch, totally unmotivated.  Last night Jeff slept with the girls in the tent outside.  They have been wanted to do that since we moved here.  Well, I didn't.  My back would have been killing me and I'm not sure I would have been able to move all day.  I think it might have to do with my weight, hopefully I will be able to sleep in a tent of the ground without killing my back.  I slept in the house with the windows open and I can tell you that the neighbors have an annoying, loud barking yappy dog that barks all night off and on.  Scarlett woke up at one point screaming cause she had no idea where she was.  So I was sleeping on and off all night.  I could seriously use a nap today.  I'll share our menu plan when I finally get it done.

Mini Golf

After an extremely long day at work we went out to eat for dinner.  I was full but didn't over do it, and I hadn't had lunch today(surprise, surprise). Then we took the girls to miniature golf.  They enjoyed it, for a while.  It was super busy and all because of a family that was just goofing around. 5 adults and 1 kid.  We got home and I had a surprise waiting.  I got a body media!  Yay, I am so excited.  It will help me count my calories and it tracks to my phone!  It is sad to get so excited of things like this, but it's who I am.  It is official!  We bought plane tickets this afternoon.  We will be flying back to PA this summer for a week.  I just hope that I can keep it together.  The last time I flew, people probably thought I was mental, which for those that know me, might say well you are a little off your rocker.  But no seriously every time I fly, I seem to get worse and I hate it more than the last time. I'm excited to see my friends and catch up with everyone.  I'm sure the girls will love it.  They talk about flying on an airplane at least once a week since we started talking about.  We haven't flown as a family since Elizabeth was 1, so 4 years ago.  Now we have 2 kids, and they are old, so tons more stuff and we have to keep 2 little ones entertained for 5 hours on the plane. Hopefully the girls will be a good distraction for me. Probably gonna have to talk to the Dr. about getting something for anxiety, just in case I start acting like a basket case.  I have never taken anything, so hopefully it won't make me wired or totally  knock me out.  We will see I guess.  Tomorrow is gonna be an interesting day.  We are gonna go Easter egg hunting in the morning at a park and then possibly again later at our house. Then it's cleaning day and getting some laundry done, since it doesn't get done all week, we have tons to do. Need to make a meal plan too, cause our meals have gotten out of control.  I need to get things under control before I start school again and before we have any more kids.  So, wish me luck!

Change of Plans

Well today I was suppose to have an hour training session.  I was even planning on going in 30 mins early to have a nice warm up, and then things changed.  I got home from work and my dad(aka-Papa, aka-the babysitter) told me that our youngest just wasn't feeling well. She slept for 3hrs and then fell asleep again for 30mins until I got home.  She only sleeps that much when she isn't feeling well.  She was super fussy and I'm not sure what is going on with her, so I had a change of plans.  I didn't want to take her to the gym if she wasn't feeling well.  Poor thing.  I have to go shopping to get somethings for Easter.  I tend to go WAY over board.  I promised Jeff that I wouldn't go overboard. We will see I guess. Elizabeth wants to hunt Easter eggs in the backyard.  so I have to buy all of the stuff for that, since we can't seem to find anything since we moved. They are saying it might rain on sat, so our little egg hunt might end up being inside. I guess we will see. I just wish there was an easy way to lose weight and I didn't have to work so hard. It sucks! I'm telling you it is way easier to put the weight on, than take it off.  Ugh!  Tons of pressure & a short period of time to work with.

Old Habits

Well that saying "Old Habits Die Hard". It is totally true.  We use to eat out all of the time. And this week we fell back into that habit.  We don't have the money to be eating out, but I have eaten out at least one meal everyday this week.  I don't even want to know what the scale says right now. So, we decided no more eating out.  It got out of control this week.  We need to cut it out.  I am very capable of cooking, I just don't.  I have still yet to make a meal plan.  tomorrow I have another session with the trainer & I need to write out a meal plan & make us stick to it.  I have a a ton of work to do, even more now.  & a shorter period of time to do it in.  I have my work cut out for me.

Still getting use to it

Well clearly I am still getting use to this blog thing.  I got on here yesterday and checked my email and facebook, and looked up some stuff for the girls for the airplanes and then closed the computer and didn't even think about writing my blog for yesterday.  So I guess I am still getting use to writing this blog. Had training again this morning.  And found out that Elizabeth is having her pictures taken tonight.  Elizabeth just informed me that she wants to hunt Easter eggs on Saturday in our back yard.  I have no idea where our eggs are so I either have to find the eggs or buy some new ones.  I have no idea where they girls Easter baskets.  Oh the joys of moving.  Well, Jeff may not love his new job, but it looks like his bonus might make it work working.  It is just totally strange, I actually enjoy my training sessions. My biggest problem is keeping my food intact.  It is a work in progress I guess, but I have a short period of time in which I need to lose some weight.  It is a good thing I guess, though a bit stressful too.  I guess I really just need to focus and be serious and pray.  I believe this is as much as a spiritual as it is mental and a physical battle.  I have a long road ahead of me.

LONG DAY

It was suppose to be a nice easy day at work, but instead it ended up being a very LONG day at work. I didn't leave til 5.  I haven't had a day like that in a long time.  I have to work this weekend, hopefully it won't be as bad as today.  I'm feeling good today though.  We had a tee-ball game, Elizabeth is really starting to enjoy playing, though she does a great job of distracting her self. We will work on that. We went out to eat for dinner.  I didn't get a Dr. Pepper like I usually would have order, though Jeff got one on accident.  I definitely over ate though.  I was hungry, but by the time we got done, man I was stuffed.  I am exhausted tonight, surprise, surprise. :) I find it strange that I actually enjoy working out with a trainer.  I have 1, possibly 2 sessions this week.  I'll have to see what my schedule is like.  We are trying to decided on when to leave for PA and buy the tickets.  I just wish tickets didn't cost so much money.  It's actually quite annoying having to spend the money.  I don't want to spend any money, wish some things were free.

Streak Ended

I'll start this by saying first.  I love my husband, he is amazing. He called me up today and wanted to know if I wanted to have lunch with him, since our works are so close.  I said sure.  He wanted Pizza Hut.  I'm not a huge fan, but I love him, so I agreed.  Well jeff brought me a Dr. Pepper.  He said that he would over look today(He made me a deal.  Every 7 days with no Dr. Pepper and he'll give me $10). Well today was day 7. I joked that he just didn't want to pay me.  But it is actually good that he got me a Dr. Pepper.  I had been really craving one for the last couple of day.  But today, I had no intentions of drinking one, but yet still wanted one.  Well, after drinking.  It is ok, but I don't really crave it.  I had to go to the store, unexpected today to get something for Jeff, and probably would have had to fight myself about not getting a soda, but I'm not craving it anymore.  So I'm happy with that.  Went to the gym again today.  Trained for almost 30 mins and then did 30 mins of interval training.  Cooking salmon for dinner.  I'm starving, but can't wait for it to be done. Salmon and asparagus.  Yum!

Long day

Well today was my day off.  I love those days.  Though they never seem like a day off, as I always keep myself busy. This morning I had another day with my trainer.  I thought I was suppose to be there at 9AM so I showed up at 8:50 and started on the treadmill.  Did 10 mins of intervals & wondered where my trainer was.  So I checked my calendar again & I wasn't scheduled til 9:30. So I went upstairs and did some more intervals.  30 mins before my 1hr training with Zan.  I'm fighting the start of a head cold thing, but did ok.  By the end of the hr & was sweating & majorly tired, but felt good. I didn't have a lunch planned & that is a downfall.  I need to prepare for that next time. I am training again tomorrow.  I was apparently bored today cause it seemed like I just kept eating. Hopefully I am not sore tomorrow, but I didn't think that I would be last time and the next day my legs were killing me. Hopefully I will be feeling good tomorrow and can do another hr workout.  I am running out of time. Only 3 months left.  93 days to be exact. So I really have to kick my butt in gear. I only have 93 days left. I am excited to go back up to PA. I've got a lot to do today. But I am on day 6 of no Dr. Pepper!!!

Sickness & No Soda

Well yesterday I started getting sick. Right now I am only a little stuffy & have a sore throat.  I hope that this is all it will be.  I finally have stop drinking Dr. Pepper.  It is really the only soda I drink, but when I drink it, I drink too much and no enough water. I have not had a Dr. Pepper in 5 days. I think this is the longest in a long time. I had to go to the store to get some milk & I wanted a Dr. Pepper, but I didn't want to break my streak, so I didn't get one. That is a big step for me. I am kind of surprised at myself. But I think I can keep doing it. On the bright side. We went to the zoo on Sunday and walked around in the 80 degree weather for 3 hrs. I burned over 800 calories. Yikes!  Holy crap. I was amazed.  I can't believe I burned that much. I still have a long way to go, one day at a time.

Stupid Internet

Well, after all of our rain storms the Internet was on the blinker.  It wasn't really down, but it wasn't working either. We went to the zoo for 3 hrs on Sunday.  It was a long day, in which I didn't drink enough water.  I had a major headache.  Took some Tylenol and drank about 6 cups of water for dinner and I was feeling much better. I'm feeling good, with walking at work.  It seems to be getting easier, which is definitely a good thing.  I have training tomorrow.  I am actually looking forward to it, strange I know, but it is weird I am starting to like working out a little more.  Not wanted to do it all of the time, but disliking it less than I use to. I have a big goal and the deadline is the end of June. Which I just figured out this morning is only 3 months away.  I have a ton of work to do.

Goals & the why

I finally figured out all of my goals & the reasons why.  It was a lot harder than I thought it would be to write down all of my goals.

Goals:
Lose weight- Goal weight 135-150lbs
Want to be able to run around with my kids
Want to have another baby and actually look like I am pregnant
Want to finish a 5K
Want to run a 5K
Run 1/2 marathon
RUN A marathon
complete a triathlon
Feel good about my body
Fit into a bathing suit
Fit back into my old clothes
Do a pull-up
Be able to buckle an airplane seat belt
Be able to ride a roller coaster

Why?
For myself
for my family- I don't want my girls to end up like me
To feel less tired all of the time
To feel good about myself & like the way I look again.
For our 10 yr anniversary we are going to the beach & I want to feel my best.
I don't wan to sit on the sidelines of my own life.
I HATE running but really have the desire to start running.
I don't want to die young
To lessen my chances of getting cancer & heart disease
Don't want to get winded by a short walk up stairs
Don;t want to develop diabetes
Want to be able to fit into a roller coaster ride, comfortably

Majorly sore

Yesterday was my first work out with my new trainer. I didn't think it was that rough, but today, man I was really sore.  I still wanted to go to the gym to get some time in. I was gonna do the intervals I did last week, but my legs hurt to bad, so I still did intervals, but at a slow pace. Much slower than I usually do.  But I still got in around 35 minutes or so.  I did some stretching afterwards & I'm still sore, but feeling good. tomorrow will either be another day at the gym or our first trip to the zoo. I know the girls would love it, but it all depends on the weather. M-Th it rained. Today was pretty nice, so hopefully it will be really nice outside tomorrow, like it is suppose to be. Tonight I made turkey meatloaf.  First time we ever had turkey meatloaf, but we have been using turkey in things more than beef lately.  I actually think that turkey meatloaf tastes better than regular. It was quite good.  Tomorrow, mini lasagnas.  I am excited about that, should be interesting.  I've learned today that I can NOT have sweets in the house. I bought a gallon of choc ice cream for the girls yesterday & it is half gone & they only had a scoop each. I have eaten way to much. So no more for this house, at least for a while. No Dr. Pepper on the other hand. I haven't been success this week, but today no soda. I'm still working on my goals. It is a lot harder than I thought to write down EVERYTHING.

Training

UGH! I wrote out everything, and then one wrong button & it's all gone. So trial #2. I had my first session with my new trainer at the gym. My old trainer Lisa, I had been working with her for the last 6 months, but she got a new job. So today I met with Zan for the first time. I was dreading this day since last week, a new trainer & she wanted to bump me up to 1hr(I had only been doing 1/2 hr).  I was freaking out, but Zan is super nice & she didn't completely kick my butt. I was feeling super tired but she just wanted to see what I could do. I imagine as time goes, I will get my butt kicked. Or hopefully it will get easier as I start working out more and eating healthier. Zan gave me a little notebook & wants me to write down all of my goals/results that I want. And the reasons why & want to accomplish these things. I have written down goals before, a couple at a time, but I have never sat down and thought about all of the things I want and why I want all of these things & why I want to change. I showed Zan a pic of me 10 years ago(right after high school). I actually love showing people, cause no one looks at me and believes that I looked like that. I am excited about training now. I told Zan about our trip that we are planning and the deadline taht I have.  She was excited about having a deadline & told me that she never loses. I am feeling great & can't wait. The girls are being quite right now. they have discovered the flinstones & the jetsons & they love them. :) I have tons to do & really need to start focusing. I will share my goals & reasons why as soon as I figure them all out.

It's a bit blurry, but this was 10 years ago. I fit into juniors size 13.  Amazing. Someday... someday

Meal Planning

Well tonight I am finally getting around to making my meal plans for this weekend. Its raining again( or should I say still). My kids are acting like themselves tonight. Crazy & the 2 year old is pick on & beating up the 5 year old. The house is being lit up with lightening & major thunder going on. I didn't get lunch today at work, which is not unusual, depending on what kind of day it is. Tomorrow I'm working out for 1hr with my trainer. Yikes. I may not survive. & then the eye Dr. I would really love to keep writing, but at this point in the storm, I'm kind of thinking getting struck by lightening, is not going to be fun & it is awful close.  So until tomorrow. Have a great night!

Planning for a trip

It was an easy day at work. I wasn't working the floor and got to leave on time for once, but I'm just so exhausted. Our internet is back & my plan for tonight is to make a meal plan for the rest of the week. I have a 4 day weekend, which is the longest & I managed to clean part of the kitchen yesterday & cleaned off the table, which the whole family hadn't been able to sit at for quite a while. We even had a family dinner. The dinner was full of our girls making knock-knock jokes. They think that they are the funniest people on the planet. They keep us laughing & themselves. It's been raining all day again today. I think it is suppose to stop this weekend(one can hope). I am planning on redoing the whole kitchen this weekend. Cleaning out the cupboards & throwing away old food. I'm gonna try out some new recipes this weekend too. So my husband and I are planning on taking the girls to his parents house for a week this summer. His whole family lives in PA.  We flew with our oldest when she was 12 months. It will be our first time with both girls and Elizabeth(our oldest-who is 5) is super excited. She can't wait. In fact she keeps telling us that she wants a Dora suitcase to take with her. It should be interesting, but fun I think. The last time I flew, was last summer when I came down to OK to find a job & a place for us to live. I couldn't really fit into the seat(couldn't buckle the seat belt at all). & I had my first and only anxiety attack. I'm not sure why,but it seems that every time I fly I seem to freak out more. This last time, I was horrible. I was actually crying while waiting for one of my flights. Hopefully this time will be better with the whole family, but just in case I will be talking to the Dr. & telling them what happened last time. If I need to take an Ativan just to stay calm during my flight, I gladly will. We are still looking at flights & trying to figure out what we will do while we are there but the girls are excited & can't wait. In fact while I was writing this, they both reminded me that they want Dora suitcases. I love those girls!

Crazy Weather

Last night the weather was crazy. Our internet went down & ugh just a interesting night. It was raining all day.  Basically it either lightly rained or down poured all day. But the girls and I ventured out in the rain to the gym. I did 45 mins on the treadmill doing intervals. 45 mins that is the longest I have done in a LONG time.  I was tired, but felt good. I have a bodybugg, which I use to wear all of the time, but now I wear it once in a while. Basically I just forget to put it on, but I really should wear it all the time to get the most accurate calories burned.  But anyways, doing intervals for 45 mins burned me over 500 calories. I was really excited about that. I love my days off!  I took 2 extra days off this week, since it is my oldest daughter's spring break. I get a 4 day weekend!! :) I have BIG plans. Yep, let's see. Making a meal plan, which I will try to accomplish tonight. And doing laundry, cleaning the house and sorting through toys. Our girls are extremely blessed & we need to get rid of some of their stuff. I just can't help myself. I love shopping for them & when I see a toy I would love to play with I get it for them or new cute clothes. Thus why I need to go back to school & get my RN. I am currently and LPN. I am planning on going back to school in the fall.  That will make things interesting, but it needs to be done.

One Change at a Time

Changing my lifestyle will require one same change at a time. I have often tried to cut out soda. Mainly Dr. Pepper. I don't drink any soda other than Dr. Pepper, but I seem to be on a kick lately of drinking 1 or 2 bottles a day, and no water, or hardly any water. I have said many times before that I am going to cut it out and stop drinking soda. But usually by day 1 or 2 I have started drinking it again. Someone told me, not to cut it out completely but have it once in a while. I have come to the conclusion, that I am not one that can just drink it once in a while. I really need to cut it out completely. Tomorrow morning will be my 1st day. My goal is to completely cut out Dr. Pepper . At this point I am just not capable of keeping my soda drinking under control & still drinking enough water. I use Sparkpeople and livestrong to keep track of my weight and my calories. I am going to make Sundays my weigh in day.  This week will be a strange week, because I will only be working two days, but I have enough to do around the house to keep me busy. I need to re haul the entire kitchen. I also need to make a meal plan for the family, since I am going to start cooking for dinner, instead of eating out. We are not going to eat out for the rest of the month, and all of April too. As a family we use to eat out a lot. If we didn't feel like cooking or we were in a hurry with our schedules we would just go out to eat or pick up some take out. But no more eating out. part of our plan to get healthy. Mcd's is not exactly healthy & our girls LOVE their nuggets. Best to change that horrible habit when they are 5 & 2. Wish me luck on no more Dr. Pepper!

Intro & goals

My journey into the blog world! I have blogged on Sparkpeople. Which is a weight lose site that I use & love!  I love following a fellow sparker's blog, "Runs for Cookies". She is an inspiration!  I decided to start my own blog, after much debate. This blog will be my journey to get healthy and change my lifestyle along with my family's. I have two beautiful girls and I want them to grow up with a healthy lifestyle in place and hopefully not have the issues I am having now. I love food & need to have a healthier relationship with it. This is my journey to lose weight, get in shape & someday maintain. My goals are to lose over 100lbs, be able to run. Just run. I don't like to run, actually I hate it, but for some reason I really want to become a runner & run in 5ks & marathons.  This is my journey to a new life. I hope that I can someday be an inspiration to others. If I can do it, you can do it too.